When I took this photo of Joshua I didn’t know that Joshua would die in a little over a month. We lived alone together for almost 19 years and though I knew we wouldn’t always be together a part of me thought we would have at least a few more years together. It’s been a little over 6 months since he died and people tell me that “it’ll get easier” but the thing is, I don’t want it to “get easier.” “Get easier” just means I’ve moved further away from the last time I held him. “Get easier” just means getting used to him not being with me. Why would I want anything to “get easier.” My only request that I wish to be fulfilled after I die is that I be buried with a photo of Joshua and I and I want the photo to be sealed in plastic and be placed in my shirt or jacket pocket. I know it sounds morbid to be writing about that request but we’re all going to die and we all know it so what’s morbid about writing about a little post mortem request?
My art website is www.chrisfrancz.com.